hmm..

So today was a good day and then I drained myself towards the end of it and  I am now recovering...lol..Not drain as in tired but I think I overworked myself in my mind...not actually...like I made things more overwhelming than they are...

Also today, we had like a "game-show" kinda thing in student recital and the Theory team (my team) won, but it also made me realize how many things that I've learned that I have forgotten...I definitely need to actually learn and take in these things like all the way so I can know it like in my sleep...like not just stuff about theory but music in general. I shouldn't have to think so hard to recall some of these things...And, that got me thinking about grad school and the future and life and stuff...and I just need to be better...

I completely lost my train of thought just now and I've been meaning to tell somebody that I conduct electricity...like extra electricity...like I may have super powers that I never knew about because I've been seeing little sparks of light when I do certain stuff with my hands...I AM A SUPERHERO!

Anyway, I'm going to have my recital and write for my recital....
I always think of my life like a movie and I want to stop....like I'll be walking down the street..imagining myself in a movie and I'll think of what's going on in the movie in stuff...like narration in my head...I'd like to stop and just live...I just got sleepy...I thought I was gonna be wide awake for a long time...i'm going to eat my food and sit here...my arm is tired...i need to cut my nails...i wanna write some good songs and sing them and stuff..and play them with a band and guitar...

I'd like to just relax..I think I get sleepy at around 10:30 like every night.