So I don't write on this thing.
I am currently listening to the third movement of Brahms Symphony Op. 90 No. 3 in F. This is my joint. I forget that I like it.
Anywho, So i'm trying to get back into orchestration but I am so afraid. I'm not confused but I'm psyching myself out. I have a blank page of manuscript paper in front of me with Quartet on the top. But....what I want to write isn't for quartet I don't think. I think its for string orchestra, a small one is fine but I guess I should write for what I want...but then I think about writing for string orchestra and then I get afraid and I decided to start with quartet because it's only four instruments and I felt like that wouldn't be overwhelming.
I need to go find my confidence...it's all trial and error...this is not that deep. I should just start writing something down.
I want a upper pedal on B in the first violin and I want this section to be atmospheric because I'll be singing...I plan to write an introduction that will be more polyphonic and contrapuntal but the section where i'm singing won't really move forward.
I need to take a break and eat and go get my confidence back. I can do whatever I want to do. I'm just trying to get these sounds in my ears...I want it to be lush and heart wrenchingly beautiful. I've written some really nice passages for strings before so I can do it again and it's not like I can't erase if I don't like something.
I think i'm just like considering how many players I'll have because I'll write differently depending on what I have access to. I think I'm gonna write for string orchestra because that's what I'm feeling right now. The stuff that I want to study is always for a bigger group, I should just go for it. It's ok if I stress myself out while doing it.
So I'll go for like 12 or 21.
I'm just gonna write stuff that sounds good.
I'm gonna get over it.
NOW.
