better

stop trying to MAKE things happen.
I don't want to be that person that is so caught it up in where I want to be that I don't appreciate what is now.

I want to Relish in what is now...i want to literally be in love with it. Whatever process I'm going through....or am I even going through a process. What point of arrival am I reaching toward?
When will I ever feel like I have accomplished or arrived? What is the goal?

If the goal is to be better than isn't that process never-ending?
How do I balance striving to be better while being content with what is now? All of this without being complacent, mediocre or settling.

I just want to be better...i'm sure things won't ever be "perfect" but I'll take solid. I'll take heartfelt and passionate, real and life changing...I'll take something that moves me and moves other people...

It doesn't have to be perfect but it has to have that sweet spot...it should feel good. My mind should be free and open...

i want to dwell in each moment...spend time within each second,  taking in all it has to offer and giving each all of me to each millisecond or mini increment of time. to be in the middle...between the cracks...to be one with the present.

Maybe that is what it means to be better...to be here. To offer complete attention to the here and now.