Crazy

I have this problem. I think I get so excited about stuff that I don't allow things to progress naturally.  I discover a bunch of things that I want to do at the same time, and then I don't know which one to do first, and I try to figure out how to do them all so I don't forget any of them and I don't actually really digest one of them because my brain is so scattered. I need to stop this.  It's not just with big things but little things...it happens every single day...every time i want to practice or learn something, another thing i wanna learn pops up in my head...Confusion begins!! I try to read more than one book at one time, I think about transcribing a million songs at once...I'll stop...i'll just do what I started...i started reading coltrane and jane eyre...i will read and finish coltrane...i started transcribing Bessie's blues...i'll finish and transcribe that whole thing and then move on...ok . i can do this. just breathe...everything else will still be there..i'll do that right now...at least one new thing everyday...it can be more than one but it doesn't have to be. now Wesley got me wanting to read about orchestration...this is just insane. ok. i will transcribe Bessie's blues. Sight-read and Analyze the pieces that I'm playing on organ and discover stuff...today. Piano solo, bessie's blues...i can do this...one thing a day. i can do it. alright. i'm ready...::deep breath::